I’m officially back home. Yes, that is what I’ve concluded; this my friends is my home at “A Mothers Journey“. This is where you get a closer look at me and the behind the scenes of my family. This is where dreams are born, friends are made, and the waves of my mothering journey are revealed. Like it, share with others, or subscribe by email: grab your life ring because we are going on a ride.
A healthy living, homeschooling, gluten/dairy/corn/ intolerance, family kind of adventure ride.
As some of you know, I have not been missing from the blogging world entirely. I have been chasing dreams over at Keystone Ministry and Sister2SisterJourney. However, something has been missing. My home! A piece of my heart felt empty and I have been longing to make my way back here. The sight is currently getting a make over but isn’t that what a home is; a work in progress at all times? It is the building foundation from which all else rests upon.
This my friends is where the seeds are firmly planted, flowers bloom, and gradually blossom for the world to see. Anchored deep in love; through good times and bad. We are just one real family making our journey through life to our ultimate resting place with HIM. I hope you will join me.
Today I’m linking up with the beautiful Crystal Stine as we take you ‘Behind the Scenes” be sure to hop on over.
Round and round we go; its funny how life on earth is sort of like a merry-go-round. We ride the ride; up and down, round and round we go. We hold on tight and don’t let go. Well, that is until the ride comes to a complete stop.
Did you enjoy your ride; or are you left with regret?
Lately, I am finding myself in a constant push and pull oppose to the constant up and down motion we readily expect in life. These past few weeks I have had several ‘behind the scenes’ projects/dreams coming to surface. I have been up crazy late and up way to early just to get it all done. The push until I can’t any more and the pull; is this what I’m suppose to be doing?
I was giving up writing; I was closing my blogs, I was hanging up my ‘mom blogger’ hat. How did I possibly go from wanting to delete every social media everything to this?
What am I doing? What am I being called to do? Is it write? Is it minister to others? Is it mentor?
Truth be told, I do not know fully what is in store , but what I do know is there are big things happening. When we say ‘yes’ and don’t throw in the towel; like we so often have a tendency to do. We shut the doors before they fully open. We jump off when things get hard. We find ourselves regretting, confused, and frustrated as a result.
Well, this time friends this girls going to keep ‘pushing’ forward because i know in the end it will lead to an ‘upward’ motion of achievement. The ‘push’ is hard and the ‘pull’ is sometimes the hardest. It is a juggle and a struggle and one I could do without. In the end the merry-go-round keeps spinning all the while. It doesn’t stop so you can jump off whenever you please. There is a set time for you to exit and until the final ‘bell’ sounds. You will ‘push’ because you believe ‘you’ are capable of more! Sit, dream, and DO!
It’s 4AM (YES, Im blogging at 4:00 AM) and I am holding my squirming babe who appears to have a belly ache. As I try to rest my heavy eye lids this sentence keeps popping into my head (oh, this head of mine I tell you).
‘What doesn’t kill you will only make you stronger.’
Really? Most people are sleeping at 4:00 AM not getting poetic and writing blog posts. Seriously, I must be losing it! I’m coming off a particularly emotionally draining week and heading full force into a physically demanding one. So maybe I’m not losing it after all..…
Last week I struggled with many ‘heart issues’ but jealousy ranked among the top. What an ugly thing it can be. It hardens the heart something terrible. It’s like lava spewing out of a volcano. It pours out with no direction at all and hardens; leaving a path of destruction everywhere it has been.
Now, as I enter this week my husband is away for business and I am here to ‘man’ the camp. He does not travel often (thank God!) but when he does it is filled with late nights, sleepless nights, and early mornings. My expectations of myself run high on a daily basis but when I’m flying solo they are ‘over the top’!
I am not super human; so why should I expect to become such?
However, this week I will try to be ‘different’ I will try to lean on ‘Him’ more and ‘me’ less in an effort to keep the storm at bay I might even try to schedule some me time. Focusing on what is truly important and not the other 1000 things fighting for my time.
So I leave you with this ‘what doesn’t kill you will only make you stronger.’ This week will certainly not ‘kill’ me. I will be challenged. I will be tired. I will work extra hard. I might feel frustrated. I might get cranky. However, I will come out stronger because I will not do it alone