Our days have been filled with shear chaos to put it mildly. I am still having dizzy episodes and now this past weekend I was diagnosed with shingles. Preschool is well under way, homeschooling is going great, and we are enjoying all that life has to offer. However, I am starting to think it is a bit much! I know I have been saying that for awhile. “Somethings got to go” but my health doesn’t seem to be getting any better and the Drs. can’t seem to figure out what is going on so…time for some “me” dicine of my own!! Could it be stress? Over exhaustion? Years of sleep deprivation? Who knows …..
What I do know is apparently when we don’t listen to God the first time he will speak louder! Well, I got the message (I hope) slow down, ask for help, say “no” to myself, say “no” to others, simplify life, and re-organize my priorities. All of those things are easy to type but not a single one is easy to fulfill.
One of my good friends put it best “this ought to be interesting …in all the years I have known you …you have never done just one thing”. We were laughing and make fun of it of coarse. I can be pretty crazy at times!! (I’m sure I’m not the only one out there like this…I hope!) However, what a true statement that was “I have never done just one thing”. Since I turned 16 I have always had multiple jobs, served in multiple volunteer positions, done mission trips, over committed myself, and virtually have lived my life serving and pleasing others. I think although those are all good things God truly does want us to think of ourselves too at times.
Have you taken any “Me” dicine lately? This is surely going to be a process and if anyone is in the same or similar boat to me I would love to have company :). After all misery loves company right? I say that lightheartedly because although I know asking for help, change, and a few other minor adjustment are necessary this will truly be torture for me.
I started this weekend if someone offered help…I didn’t push away for the first time EVER I said “OK”. I delegated, accepted meals, and anything else that came my way. I surely am not a pity party person and HATE for people to feel sorry for me. However, as another friend told me this weekend “in order to be a good giver you also need to be a good receiver”.
I leave you with that thought there is surely much more to come in this new journey of life. For the first time in a long time… it is “me” time! O’boy that was even hard to type let alone accept!!
However, this time of year I dread being stuck in doors in the cold, damp, gray weather!! My girls love the outdoors..digging in dirt, swinging outside, playing in water, and just running free!! Although, I do have to say the cuddling, movie/pop corn nights, and just the shear togetherness that this time of year brings is very nice too!! I guess that’s why God gives us seasons…just as we are tired of one and feeling exhausted…”boom” time for a change.
I keep saying “this is going to be a long winter”. We have many friend who have already been sick and are currently sick….and the cold weather has just begun!! I am going to plan for the worst and hope for the best. So I have added yet another “to do” on my never ending “to do” list I have decided to make up some “sick day” “blah day” busy bins for those days you are stuck in doors with no clue what to do!!
Stay tune in November for a big announcement!!
